Yesterday, I shared a big secret.
I have to tell you: I wrote that post weeks ago, and only just had the courage to post it yesterday. And that’s really because I bit the bullet a few days before, and actually scheduled the post for Friday, so that I could just forget about it* and move on, hoping for the best, but also just kind of pretending the whole thing wasn’t happening. It was that scary, to me.
The post went up. It was very quiet, and it felt like there were fewer “likes” and comments, for the first hour or two. I began to worry that I had maybe written it badly, or scared some people off, with my frankness.
Then the flood began.
Comments, texts, Facebook messages, Tweets, phone calls. All to tell me I’m not alone. To support. To relate stories. To say thank you to me for sharing my story. It was overwhelming and heartwarming.
So I wanted to say thank you, to each of you. I am so happy that what I wrote inspired you, helped you feel less alone, brought some long-withheld emotion to the surface, or helped you to understand me a little more.
I also wanted to say thank you to an amazing fellow blogger, Emily-Jane from How To Survive a Sleep Thief, for encouraging me to “come out” and share my story with the world. She has a similar story, and is a soul sister to me (though she lives in the UK and we’ve only known each other for, like, a month, sometimes you just know), and I wouldn’t have had the courage to share this, if it hadn’t been for her.
“We read to know we’re not alone.” Playwright William Nicholson wrote this line for C.S. Lewis in his play about the author, Shadowlands. It always stuck with me. And, hearing from all of you, I understand why.
Now, keep telling me your stories. I love them. I love knowing that I have helped in some way, by sharing this part of me, and in turn YOU are helping ME. Share yesterday’s post with new moms you know, so that they don’t think they’re going crazy. The more people hear these stories, the less scary it will become, I hope, to go through it.
*impossible, by the way.